Abstract Shapes and Subconscious Exploration
Chromatic Chaos is a collection of abstract paintings driven by instinct and subconscious expression. In this series, I let go of conscious control and allowed my hands to move freely, guided by whatever surfaced in the moment. Painting this collection felt like being on auto-pilot, like observing myself as a human from afar. It’s my subconscious at its peak, creating vibrant and chaotic compositions that defy structure and invite interpretation.
Through bold shapes and layers of color, Chromatic Chaos explores the delicate balance between chaos and control, asking viewers to find their own meaning within the abstract. Each piece reflects a unique moment in time, with every brushstroke revealing snippets of memory and emotion from the day it was created.
Themes and Process
This series is about embracing spontaneity and letting the subconscious lead. With Chromatic Chaos, I let instinct and personal delight guide my decisions. If something felt right, I did it. This unfiltered approach resulted in dynamic and layered pieces, where abstract shapes and bold color palettes collide.
Each painting carries its own story, rooted in specific moments of my life. Whether experimenting with color dominance, layering techniques, or splitting compositions across canvases, the process is as important as the outcome. This series captures my joy in the act of creating and the freedom to let go of overthinking.
"what is..." (July 2022)
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"what is..."
I remember this day vividly. I was painting idly while spending time with my parents. My dad was playing the trumpet, my mom was cutting fruit, and I just wanted to keep my hands busy. What started as a simple desire to move my hands turned into a creative flow that resulted in four paintings. Each piece is predominantly associated with one color, though layers of undertones give them depth and complexity. This series captures the warmth and creativity of that beautiful day.
"boxes" (2024)
"boxes" (2024)
"boxes"
In an extension of the Chromatic Chaos series, I turned my attention to wooden boxes, painting them white as a blank canvas before layering them with vibrant shapes and colors. This process was a way of adding my own flair to the space I was living in—transforming the mundane into something personal and expressive. Painting these boxes felt like a playful rebellion against the ordinary, a way to truly make the space my own. It’s the kind of thing I imagine my future self recounting at a soirée, surrounded by art, tchotchkes, and martinis, with a long cigarette holder in hand—because why not dream a little while you create?
"Held As I Am" (2024)
"Held As I Am" (2024)
"Held As I Am"
I got frustrated one day and decided to rage quit this piece. I had all this green paint out and didn’t want to waste it, so I angrily smeared it onto the canvas. Then I felt bad about it… so I tried to “fix” it by drawing over the rage paint. I managed to hold it together for about two seconds before squiggling all over it and rage quitting again. Honestly, I hated this piece. I was planning to paint it white and start over, but someone saw it yesterday and liked it—which inspired me to share it here.
“Held as I Am” conveys a sense of deep acceptance and safety. In the last few months, I’ve grown a lot in learning to accept myself. But after feeling low yesterday, this piece reminded me of something important: even in my most vulnerable, messy state, I am still “held,” supported, and valued—imperfections and all. This painting has become a powerful reminder that true love and connection come from being accepted as you are, without the need to put on a perfect facade.
"maps" (2022)
"maps" (2022)
"maps"
This piece reflects the aimlessness that often accompanies my process. When I start painting, I rarely know where I’m going, and "maps" is a perfect example of that. My mind is guided by instinct—if it feels right, I do it. The result is an abstract journey, a visual representation of letting go and enjoying the process.
"organized mess"
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"Organized Chaos"
This painting plays with the idea of structuring chaos. I wanted to explore what would happen if I created one cohesive piece that could be separated into multiple canvases. The result is a structured yet messy composition that reflects the duality of control and disorder.
"Close your eyes and look at the sun" (2022)
"Close your eyes and look at the sun" (2022)_closeup
"Close Your Eyes and Look at the Sun"
Have you ever closed your eyes and faced the sun? What comes up in that moment? For me, it’s a curious dance of ephemeral shapes, colors, and patterns—a private world that feels both abstract and deeply personal. "Close Your Eyes and Look at the Sun" captures this fleeting experience, where light filters through closed eyelids and sparks the imagination.
Through this painting, I invite you into that luminous, inner universe. What does your mind conjure when you close your eyes and let the sun in? This work celebrates the beauty of those unseen, yet profoundly vivid, moments that we all experience but rarely pause to explore.
"meh" (2022)
"meh" (2022) _ closeup
"meh"
Sometimes, paintings don’t turn out the way you expect, and "meh" is one of those. I tried too hard at the start, and by the end, I just shrugged and let it be. It’s got this, it’s got that, but I have no particular attachment to it. This one is for the audience—think what you will.
"Study" (2022)
"Study"
This piece was created during a quiet moment when I was studying at my desk, distracted by the setting sun. I decided to take a break and experiment. Like "Sweet," this painting focuses on a dominant color, but I also tried splitting the composition across two canvases. It’s a simple yet thoughtful exploration of balance and symmetry.
The Collection As A Whole
Chromatic Chaos is a celebration of spontaneity and the subconscious. Each painting in this series represents a unique moment in time, shaped by instinct and emotion. Some pieces feel playful and light, while others embrace disorder and experimentation. Together, they create a vibrant and chaotic narrative that invites the viewer to explore their own interpretations.