Mindscape Melodies invites viewers into a vibrant world of raw emotion and introspection. Created using mixed media, including pastels, color pencils, and ink pens, each painting begins its journey on the iPad before evolving into a physical piece. Bursting with color and energy, these works balance a bright exterior with nuanced layers of emotion, urging viewers to look deeper.
Creative Process
Each piece begins with a single mark, expanding organically as I alternate between close detail and broad composition. Unlike my other mediums, painting is an unfiltered expression of self—a raw, instinctive act where my emotions guide the process. Through this, I aim to capture the unspoken energy of my inner world.
Emotional Resonance
Through Mindscape Melodies, I hope viewers find fragments of themselves — moments of joy, sorrow, and growth. Each painting is an open invitation to explore emotions we often overlook and to embrace the full spectrum of human experience.
"Splitting"
"Splitting"
"Splitting"
This painting is deeply personal. It represents my own experiences of feeling like I was breaking myself apart, analyzing every piece, and then trying to put it all back together again. I’ve spent years studying mental health, and this piece reflects the journey of self-discovery—sometimes painful, sometimes illuminating. I used to feel scared of labels like bipolar, but now I see it as just a part of me, like everyone has their extra. This painting embodies the struggle and eventual acceptance of that process.
"embrace"
"embrace"
"Embrace"
This piece is about learning how to love myself when it felt almost impossible. At the time, I desperately wanted to feel warmth and comfort but struggled to find it within. The painting’s colors radiate a sense of warmth I was trying to manifest in my own life, but contrasted by the stark and thick coldness in the blue hand. It was created during a time when I was beginning to understand what self-love truly meant — learning to embrace every part of myself, even the broken or fragile pieces.
"in pieces..."
"in pieces..."
"in pieces..."
"In Pieces..."
This painting captures a moment when I felt utterly disoriented, like I was being pulled apart in every direction. The fragmented forms reflect that sense of chaos and overwhelm, but there's also an underlying hope that the pieces might eventually come together. Unlike my other paintings, this one feels flatter, with muted colors that echo how disconnected I felt at the time — not just from others, but even from myself. Looking at it now, it reminds me of how those periods of disconnection are just as much a part of the journey as the brighter, more vibrant moments.
"Crown of Crazy"
"Crown of Crazy"
"Crown of Crazy"
This painting is an honest portrayal of how my mind feels most of the time. It’s full of sparks, ideas, and endless thoughts that can either fuel my creativity or leave me feeling overwhelmed. I call it a crown because I’ve learned to own it. My mind can be chaotic, but it’s also where my best work comes from. The "crazy" isn’t inherently good or bad — it just is, and this painting is my way of embracing that duality.
"Wish" (digital version)
"Wish" (physical version)
"Wish"
This painting represents a time when I deeply wanted someone to save me. Honestly, I think most people feel this way at some point. That desire to have someone "fix" everything is such a raw and universal emotion. The character’s two hands are reaching upward, while another hand emerges from the portal above, offering help. At the time, I saw this as a symbol of longing for someone else to rescue me from my struggles.
But looking back, I now understand that the hand reaching out from the portal is my own. It’s a realization I didn’t have while creating the piece—that the strength to "save" yourself comes from within. It took me years to internalize this truth, but this painting was an essential step in that journey.
"Existence" (digital version)
"The Fragile Pillar" (digital version)
"Existence"
This painting took me a year to finish because it reflected a journey I didn’t fully understand until it was complete. When my father passed away, I felt unmoored—like just another speck of energy floating in the vast universe. It was an out-of-body experience in many ways, and this piece captures that existential feeling of being both insignificant and connected to something greater at the same time.
"The Fragile Pillar"
This one makes me laugh now because it started as a failed commission! But when I picked it back up, I poured my frustrations into it. At the time, I was dealing with people in my life who seemed to expect me to read their minds, which drove me crazy. The painting became a release for all that pent-up anger. It’s a reminder of how much emotional energy we can invest in relationships and how delicate those dynamics can be (TLDR; a boy truly truly pissed me off at the time).
"Quiet Drift" (white) (digital version)
"Quiet Drift" (black) (digital version)
"Quiet Drift"
This painting is my happy place. It’s inspired by how I feel when I’m floating in water—weightless, calm, and at peace. Water has always been my escape, both physically and emotionally. The bright pops of cyan and yellow juxtaposed with softer, muted tones and gentle forms in this piece are my way of recreating that tranquility. It’s a reminder of the quiet moments we carry within ourselves, even in the midst of chaos.
Technical Details & Expansion
Currently, these pieces are crafted on paper, but I am excited to expand onto canvas in future collections. Each painting combines mixed media techniques, layering colors and textures to create depth and vibrancy.